One day equals a year

Yesterday was my 31st Birthday.... I have never been a big birthday guy, I mean you are only one day older than the day before.

This Birthday was different. I am blessed with being a part of planting a Church and the friends I am gaining through this are special. We had a meeting yesterday and at the end the pastor prayed over me to celebrate my life.... It was honestly very moving and makes you think about yourself differently. I have never had anyone say they wanted to celebrate my life. It was the greatest gift I could have been given.

God I pray that I continue to do your work and search your heart as we start this Church. Help me be a friend to these people as they are to me... Amen.

Yes/No... Yes/No

How many times have you made a decision that your head was telling you yes, but your heart was telling you no? I have had this happen more times than I would like to admit. More recently with maybe one of the biggest decisions of my families life...

We have been trying to sell our house since Thanksgiving and have had pretty decent traffic, but not one single bite and to be honest not even a sniff. In the meantime we have had nothing but trouble with a particular realtor company that not only mislead us, but lied to us. Needless to say we have during the the process started to build a house because of the the misleading of this company. Well this house we are building will be completed in about 6 or 7 weeks and a few weeks ago we decided to move regardless of whether we sell our house or not and now we know that it was a decision most likely based on emotion and are now seeing that it really isn't an option.

I can't tell you how frustrating and disappointing it is to watch a house that you picked out go up, walk through the house meet with the contractor and just know deep down it most likely will never be yours. Last weekend we let the kids walk through it with us and they were so excited and I think I am more hurt for them. I find myself thinking about who might end up it that house and the memories they will create in a house that we had put our heart in. It truly hurts...

I have pleaded with God to sell our house. We have done everything we can do to sell it. I am at a lost as to why. Sometimes things happen in our lives that we do not understand or maybe we are so blinded by what is in front of us that we can not see the other side, I honestly do not know which of the two I am facing. What I do know is God knows...

God I pray that whatever it is I am suppose to learn from this I learn. I want with everything in me to sell this house and move into our new home and enter into the next stage of our lives. God I need you to help me with my frustration and anger during this process and above all help me keep my eyes on you.... Amen.

Wearing Down....

It's funny how your body will get rest wetter you give it to it or not. I work outside and get up before 5:00 a.m. everyday, I have two little girls that keep me busy, I go to school and am helping plant a Church. In addition we are trying to sell our house and are building another one that will be done in a few short months. All that being said I am tired... I have been working 6 days a week since March and am in desperate need of a vacation, but unfortunately my vacation will be moving.

Today I am actually home by myself so I could actually get some quality studying done but instead I took a 2 hour nap. My body needs rest...

The Bible tells us to rest in God and I sometimes have a difficult time doing that. My life in all honesty isn't the busiest life in the world. I get up in the morning tired and I am half asleep for the first hour or two of the morning and I find myself wondering why. I find it frustrating not having the energy to do not only what I want to do but also what I need to do.

God I pray that I find the strength to do what you would like me to do. I also pray that I have the awareness of when I can push myself and when I need to rest... Amen.