Pain...

Some people can deal with pain better than others. Some people can stub their toe and crawl around on the ground for a minute and be OK, yet others can do the samething and act like the world is coming to an end...

Personally I deal with some pain OK and other pain like a baby. I really can't make any sense as to which pain I will be OK with and which pain I will be a baby with. Now my wife might be one of the weakest humans ever... Really I mean if she tries to squees your hand or something it is a joke. I am amazed that a grown woman is really that weak. Honestly...

But my wife is one of the strongest people I have ever met.... I know, I know it doesn't make sense... Well my wife handles pain like nobody I have ever seen. She is a trooper.... If she is sick she keeps on trucking, if her back hurts she barely slows down, giving birth, you name it and she plows through...

Well I am experiencing pain now! This type of pain could cripple you... It could take over your whole person, it could destroy you if you allowed it...

I have a dear friend that is going through a period in his life that is serious. His health is in question and the doctors have rulled nothing out! Cancer!!!! Maybe and looks like yes. It looks like the questions aren't if, but how much...

This pain I feel I am sure isn't anything like my friends. I am sure this friend of mine has pain that runs much deeper than I can imagine. This friend of mine has a wife and four kids, the youngest is 1... Yes 1!!!!!!

My heart is broken... I have had my heart broken before from my first love, other women, sports, hopes crushed, dreams crushed, lose of a loved one, etc... I can honestly say for whatever reason... This one hurts! This one hurts! This one hurts! I can't put into words how it hurts....

I haven't felt pain like this in some time, I could question if I ever have... I don't know? I know that my heart is broken and I know that my love for my friend is more than I knew... I know I find myself questioning the Creature of everything....

I question why him? Why now? What about his wife? What about his kids? What about his house? What about... What about... What about...

My heart is screaming WHY!!!! I don't need to understand honestly... I want to understand, but I don't need too...

I feel closer to God than I have been in a bit... I find myself thinking of my friend and God more than I have in a while... I find myself begging and pleading with God to restore my friend, because this friend is a special Man. This man is gifted and he just doesn't know how gifted he is. This man is a man after God's heart...

God I will be pleading with You as I walk along side of my friend. I will be crying and questioning during this walk. I will be beging You, shouting at You and praising You during this walk. God my prayers are for your glory and I pray that the glory is my friend restored here and now.... Amen.