Huh?

I am desperately trying to become a man of integrity. I think this idea of having integrity is exciting to me, but I want it to be real. I want people to think of me as a man of integrity, but I'm not seeking everyone's approval. I want it to be who I am, instead of what I'm trying to do.

OK, now this sounds a little confusing to me so I can only imagine what people think who are reading this. So let me try to explain what this means. I have you ever heard people say things like "He is trying to become a cook", or "He was going to be a lawyer". I think the same can be said about our character. I mean you either are or aren't a lawyer, the same can be said about the cook. You either like to cook or are a cook.

That is what I mean about integrity. You either have it or not. So what does the name of my blog mean? "Trying to become a man of Integrity" the title really says I don't have it.... Well not really.... You can always be a better cook or a better lawyer. I can have integrity and still need to become a man with more integrity, make sense.

Let me change gears a minute. The real reason for this post is because as I am pressing into this idea of Integrity I am hearing God's voice more and more. I have recently heard HIM say things that have me saying.... HUH? What I am hearing isn't want I would want, but I have an excitement about what HE is leading me to. I want to follow God's leading, but with integrity. I want it to be about HIM and not about me. I want to make sure it is from God, but at the same time I do not want to miss the moment. I can't just wait for God to make it happen, HE doesn't work that way. HE calls un into something and only promises HE is in it...

God I pray that I continue to pursue you with Integrity. I pray that I will be able to step into your callings with faith that it is for your glory and trust that whatever I find myself into, it will make me a better man.... A man of Integrity, Amen.