Sold Out?
I just finished reading a book called "Sold Out" and it talks about how the author was sold out in different areas of his life. He was a Christian, a family man, one of the founders of Promise Keepers (a men's ministry) and one of the top college football coaches in the country. The premise of the book is that football his dream was in the way of getting close to God. Football had taken the top spot on his priority list and eventually God called him to retire from football so that he could make God number one. He said the busy schedule and demands of football didn't allow him to put God first. He tried over and over to put God first but football always got in the way.
It was a surprisingly good book, but it has me thinking about what I am putting before God? In the book he doesn't say coaches can't put God first it was something he couldn't do. He challenges his readers to examine what they are putting before God and do whatever it takes to change it. He doesn't tell us to quit our jobs, but as I look at what I do for a living I know God is calling me to do something different. I know what that is even, but I know that it will require a lot of work on my end. Like I said before most of my life I didn't have to work that hard for anything. It was either given to me, I walked into it or my determination made it happen. I have never had to work, in my mind, very hard for most things. I guess I'm bless in that regard, but it does make you lazy. I see the path in front of me, I know God is calling me down it. I'm struggling to get off my but and go down it.... I'm afraid of how much work it will take. I'm afraid of how much different life will be financially. I'm afraid of the sacrifice my family would have to make. I'm afraid if I walk down the path... I'll fail.
I grew up with a saying... "There is only one thing I'm not good at and that is losing". I use to be the worlds worst loser. I hated to lose more than anything. I would sacrifice my body anytime to win a game of basketball and never think twice about it. I once played 6 weeks with a fractured right arm because I wanted to finish a church league. I couldn't even use it the first couple of weeks, I would shoot my free throws left handed. I ended up needing to get screws in my arm. My point is just like I hated losing because of how it made me feel I am just as afraid of failing.
I want to be Sold Out to God and what I am realizing is that what is between God and I is.... ME. My fear! The most used command in scripture is "Fear Not". I think that is for a reason...
God help me Fear Not. I want to walk down the path you have shown me, but I'm afraid of how much work is involved in clearing my path. Help Me....
Amen.
It was a surprisingly good book, but it has me thinking about what I am putting before God? In the book he doesn't say coaches can't put God first it was something he couldn't do. He challenges his readers to examine what they are putting before God and do whatever it takes to change it. He doesn't tell us to quit our jobs, but as I look at what I do for a living I know God is calling me to do something different. I know what that is even, but I know that it will require a lot of work on my end. Like I said before most of my life I didn't have to work that hard for anything. It was either given to me, I walked into it or my determination made it happen. I have never had to work, in my mind, very hard for most things. I guess I'm bless in that regard, but it does make you lazy. I see the path in front of me, I know God is calling me down it. I'm struggling to get off my but and go down it.... I'm afraid of how much work it will take. I'm afraid of how much different life will be financially. I'm afraid of the sacrifice my family would have to make. I'm afraid if I walk down the path... I'll fail.
I grew up with a saying... "There is only one thing I'm not good at and that is losing". I use to be the worlds worst loser. I hated to lose more than anything. I would sacrifice my body anytime to win a game of basketball and never think twice about it. I once played 6 weeks with a fractured right arm because I wanted to finish a church league. I couldn't even use it the first couple of weeks, I would shoot my free throws left handed. I ended up needing to get screws in my arm. My point is just like I hated losing because of how it made me feel I am just as afraid of failing.
I want to be Sold Out to God and what I am realizing is that what is between God and I is.... ME. My fear! The most used command in scripture is "Fear Not". I think that is for a reason...
God help me Fear Not. I want to walk down the path you have shown me, but I'm afraid of how much work is involved in clearing my path. Help Me....
Amen.
posted by Andy Rainey at Sunday, July 24, 2005
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