Do you believe?
I am a huge Cincinnati fan... I love my Bengals and my Reds, but I seem to be saying to myself they are not that good... Are they? I am having a hard time believing that my Reds are as good as they are playing. I keep waiting for the bottom to fall out and if they lose a couple of games I find myself thinking OK here it goes. I keep listening and watching and they just keep winning. I want to believe, but I can't get myself to really believe.
Have you ever thought that about something? I find myself doing this in life everywhere.... Does that make me a negative person or a person with little faith or someone who says poor pitiful me? It seems like whenever I think something amazing is going to happen something tends to come up and it doesn't work out that way. It never catches me by surprise because I am looking for that exact thing to happen.
I wonder if that is why it happens... I wonder if I bring on the "bad karma" because I am waiting for it? I sometimes struggle with that in my faith. I sometimes think God is calling me into something and for some reason I think I fail and it doesn't surprise me, again because that is what I am expecting to happen.
I remember growing up I played everything not to lose and I sometimes find myself doing the same things now. When you play not to lose you are basically saying OK the other guy will have to beat me, because I am going to play it safe and chances are I will come out on top. I will not make a mistake.... So instead of going to my strengths or pursuing somebody's weakness I would almost do nothing.... You see how easy it is for someone to come in and take what you are protecting.
When I read the Bible I do not see God playing it safe.... God is all about letting it all hang out and letting people decide on their own. HE will let people know where HE stands and let everyone else struggle with HIM.
God I pray that I can become more like you. I pray that I let people know where I stand with you and what you mean to me and let them worry about how that effects them. I pray that I learn to pick my battles and rely on you to help me with my weakness and use my strengths for the kingdom of God... Amen.
Have you ever thought that about something? I find myself doing this in life everywhere.... Does that make me a negative person or a person with little faith or someone who says poor pitiful me? It seems like whenever I think something amazing is going to happen something tends to come up and it doesn't work out that way. It never catches me by surprise because I am looking for that exact thing to happen.
I wonder if that is why it happens... I wonder if I bring on the "bad karma" because I am waiting for it? I sometimes struggle with that in my faith. I sometimes think God is calling me into something and for some reason I think I fail and it doesn't surprise me, again because that is what I am expecting to happen.
I remember growing up I played everything not to lose and I sometimes find myself doing the same things now. When you play not to lose you are basically saying OK the other guy will have to beat me, because I am going to play it safe and chances are I will come out on top. I will not make a mistake.... So instead of going to my strengths or pursuing somebody's weakness I would almost do nothing.... You see how easy it is for someone to come in and take what you are protecting.
When I read the Bible I do not see God playing it safe.... God is all about letting it all hang out and letting people decide on their own. HE will let people know where HE stands and let everyone else struggle with HIM.
God I pray that I can become more like you. I pray that I let people know where I stand with you and what you mean to me and let them worry about how that effects them. I pray that I learn to pick my battles and rely on you to help me with my weakness and use my strengths for the kingdom of God... Amen.
posted by Andy Rainey at Tuesday, May 02, 2006
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