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I turned "old" yesterday, the big 30. I'm not a big birthday guy, I don't get overly excited or depressed. I'm really only a day older than the previous day....
I did get the opportunity to go to dinner with my family and then spend the rest of the day with my wife. As we were just talking about life I felt God say "why do you not enjoy the day I brought you in to this world"? Then he said "Is this how you feel about my birth"? It really shook me up for a minute....
I'm not big on birthdays in general and I'm not sure why? But when God convicted me I decided that I should be grateful for my birth. After all we celebrate Jesus birth like nobody's business...
It got me thinking about the births of all of HIS children and how at least three times a year I do make a big deal out of birthdays, my two daughters and of course Jesus. It started me thinking about how excited and am for Abi and Morgan and that is when Jesus said "I make a big deal out of your birthday too". Wow! The creature of all things makes a big deal out of my birth.
That is hard for me to wrap my brain around. I sometimes think about God's love for all people and I know he loves everyone, but I sometimes think that he couldn't love me.... It's hard sometimes to think that he could possibly love me. I fall so short. When I have these thoughts it is always good for me to spend some time in the Word and be open to what he wants to say to me.
I've come to realize that when I have these thoughts the are obviously from the enemy and that there is probably something somewhere inside me that is trying to hide it from God. I don't always know right away what that is, but I know if I search it out HE will reveal it to me.
Now that I have kids of my own and anyone who knows me knows how much I love them. It is just a fraction of how much God loves me. Having kids has really help me wrap my brain around the joy God sees in his children. My kids aren't perfect, but even during the times I can't wait until bedtime I am so in love with them I can't put it into words. Even during the times they just aren't listening and I have to discipline them I'm still in love with them. I think this is how God loves us. Even when I (we) are in need of some good discipline from God, he still is so in love with us that we can't put it into words. HE loves us more than we may ever understand.
God loves us even in the times we feel separated from him. HE loves us! That is powerful. God please help me when I'm falling short, when I'm throwing an adult temper tantrum, when I'm so self centered I can't see you, when I do what I know is wrong, etc... I truly want to "Become a man of Integrity". I love you and thanks for bringing me into this world you created for your glory. Amen.
I did get the opportunity to go to dinner with my family and then spend the rest of the day with my wife. As we were just talking about life I felt God say "why do you not enjoy the day I brought you in to this world"? Then he said "Is this how you feel about my birth"? It really shook me up for a minute....
I'm not big on birthdays in general and I'm not sure why? But when God convicted me I decided that I should be grateful for my birth. After all we celebrate Jesus birth like nobody's business...
It got me thinking about the births of all of HIS children and how at least three times a year I do make a big deal out of birthdays, my two daughters and of course Jesus. It started me thinking about how excited and am for Abi and Morgan and that is when Jesus said "I make a big deal out of your birthday too". Wow! The creature of all things makes a big deal out of my birth.
That is hard for me to wrap my brain around. I sometimes think about God's love for all people and I know he loves everyone, but I sometimes think that he couldn't love me.... It's hard sometimes to think that he could possibly love me. I fall so short. When I have these thoughts it is always good for me to spend some time in the Word and be open to what he wants to say to me.
I've come to realize that when I have these thoughts the are obviously from the enemy and that there is probably something somewhere inside me that is trying to hide it from God. I don't always know right away what that is, but I know if I search it out HE will reveal it to me.
Now that I have kids of my own and anyone who knows me knows how much I love them. It is just a fraction of how much God loves me. Having kids has really help me wrap my brain around the joy God sees in his children. My kids aren't perfect, but even during the times I can't wait until bedtime I am so in love with them I can't put it into words. Even during the times they just aren't listening and I have to discipline them I'm still in love with them. I think this is how God loves us. Even when I (we) are in need of some good discipline from God, he still is so in love with us that we can't put it into words. HE loves us more than we may ever understand.
God loves us even in the times we feel separated from him. HE loves us! That is powerful. God please help me when I'm falling short, when I'm throwing an adult temper tantrum, when I'm so self centered I can't see you, when I do what I know is wrong, etc... I truly want to "Become a man of Integrity". I love you and thanks for bringing me into this world you created for your glory. Amen.
posted by Andy Rainey at Sunday, July 31, 2005
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